“Life becomes easier when you learn to accept an apology you never got.” -Robert Brault
(but it doesn’t mean you won’t have questions)-KB
She’s been on my heart and mind lately. Sometimes I want answers, sometimes I don’t. Some days I think about her, some days I don’t. But today I can’t ignore this feeling. Have you ever been hurt by someone you don’t know and wonder why? I know that my destiny is not tied to her, and despite everything I wouldn’t change a thing, but I can’t help but want to know WHY. (She’s locked up, but in many ways I’m locked up, too).
And if you’re wondering whether or not I’ve forgiven her . . . Yes, long ago. The moment I chose to forgive her and the others involved in my attacks my life improved dramatically. However, I wonder how she’s faring in prison because I know she’s not being rehabilitated. For a while I didn’t need answers, but I’m at a point where I want to know why. Forgiving myself for my choices was harder, but when I say “locked up,” I’m referring to my scars and the ambiguity around what happened. I’m not searching for an apology, just answers.